All methods of spiritual practice eventually lead to the same place: complete failure of the ego-driven search, disappointment with your ability to produce satisfactory results (fruition). This is because what you are seeking cannot be produced. Fulfillment is not the effect of a prior cause. It is not currently missing and later found. It is not originally flawed, then fixed by personal effort. It is not a product of the busy-work of self-improvement. Nor can it be given to you by a teacher, deity or god. Your true original nature is always totally pristine. It is perfect all the time. The constancy of this natural perfection is what is actually going on. This is the only thing that is ultimately true about you. All other so-called truths are relative, dependent and temporary.
Like a fish in water, you are always home. Like a star in the sky, you are always shining. Like the unending expanse of open space, you are always free. Your innate enlightenment is flawless and incorruptible. Even now.
What are you seeking, then? What is it you hope to find through spiritual practice?
To act as if you are not originally whole is a blasphemy. Seeking and grasping are blatant acts of disrespect toward primordial truth, nature, and your own self. The ego-driven spiritual search is a child’s tantrum.
Mature spiritual life begins after you experience the total failure of your anxious efforts to attain peace, fulfillment, enlightenment. The very intent behind this effort denies what is always the case. Only once you pass through the genuine experience of this total failure can you begin to undergo the process of authentic self-cultivation in all Nine Spheres. If you are still seeking a cure for your discomfort — a source of adequate intoxication and distraction — you will only feel frustrated by the teachings I present here. For at the very core of everything I teach is an undermining of this game of seeking and self-delusion, and a dismantling of the Cosmology of Insufficiency (that you unconsciously allow to dictate your life).
Each of us come to spiritual practice with the same desperation and unreasonable expectations we bring to everything else (relationship, sex, work, child rearing, etc). We want a situation that will make us happy, once and for all. We want things to go our way, all the time. Disenchanted with the “material world”, we hope that through the spiritual search we will finally be successful; that yoga, meditation, mindfulness, mantra, or the guru’s magic hug will take away our pain and transport us into heavenly bliss. It never happens. No one has ever succeeded in securing fulfillment this way. The plan is faulty from the onset. The secret agenda behind spiritual seeking is ill-founded. It denies the very truth that is already fully operative. It contradicts what you truly are in your deepest essence.
The game of seeking is nothing but a glorified act of denial.
Let me be totally transparent here: the purpose of these teachings is to end your game, to show you how to cut the knot of suffering, for good.
That is why you will not find temporary satisfaction in what I offer. You will not even find lasting symptomatic relief. You will not find intoxication, lofty ideals, or uplifting affirmations to sedate your gut-level pain.
None of this is what the Radiant Awakening is about.
More than anything in the world, I want you to be free of the inner affliction that torments you. I want you to be radiant and vital in all Nine Spheres of your life. But temporary relief is like giving drugs to an addict to ease the pain of their craving. Each hit is but a moment’s diversion from the root cause. I will not feed your Cycle of Affliction with dishonest promises about spiritual transcendence. I will not participate in your endless seeking. This game of grasping is a great act of disrespect toward yourself. It denies the truth of your intrinsic wholeness and contradicts universal law. I will not be a part of it.
Working with these teachings will provoke you. It will likely ruffle your feathers (and probably piss you off). It will feel confronting. It will undermine all that you have worked to create; the many faces of your facade. It will strip you of your capacity to lie to yourself (and everyone else) about who you truly are. It will flush you out from your hiding place. It will render you utterly naked, and bring you into unguarded relationship with life. It will free you from what you never were; a contracted separate self, riddled with problems, desperately grasping for happiness.
Please do not misunderstand my directness for judgement. I totally accept you as you are. I love you as you are. I am simply making an invitation here. This invitation has no expiration date. But if you prefer to stay curled up in the familiar blanket of your egoic dream, I will not think less of you for that (just don’t come sniffing around hoping to get your spiritual ego stroked).
If you’re genuinely interested, the door is always open. The lamp is always lit.
And if the yearning for freedom is starting to supersede your attachment to the comfort of familiar pain, then you are on the brink of something revolutionary. Change is in the air. With commitment, guidance, and some sincere practice, you will soon ignite the Cycle of Awakening.
If you are willing to stop resisting life and meet me in unguarded intimacy, I guarantee that your radiant awakening is imminent. It is not a matter of if, it is a matter of when.
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